In December 2004, I had a nightmare where I was walking on a lake full of dead, bloody bodies. There was rubble all around. Trees were ripped out of the ground, buildings destroyed. Two weeks later a 9.1 magnitude earthquake in the Indian Ocean caused one of the worst recorded tsunamis in history. I watched the destruction on the news and I felt so sad because I knew this was just the beginning.

I used to be afraid of “the apocalypse”. “The end of times”. I remember thinking I hope I don’t have to live through that! Ironically, I didn’t know I was already in it.

MOOSHOOflow has shown me a way out of this thinking. The first step is to think about my current view of the end of the world. My old perspective was focused on the pain, death, destruction, disease, etc. MOOSHOOflow tells me that there are other sides of it.

How can we find peace, love and harmony in death and destruction? Well, just look around. Earth is the best example of the constant change in the universe. It might be hard to see it because we’re in it, but if you look at history and think about infinity, you realize that all this is temporary. 

I think earlier humans (maybe even religious institutions like the Catholic Church) used the idea of the apocalypse to control people. I think the view of it was so skewed towards the negative that we haven’t been able to access this higher vision.

I know in the depths of my being that there is light at the end of our tunnel. 

A few years ago, I had a dream that I was a giant man standing near the sea. There was a submarine next to me. I was ashamed of what was on the submarine so I took it and threw it into the “bottomless sea” (that was the phrase from my dream). As the submarine started to sink into the sea, I was now inside the submarine. I was a person stuck inside and I knew I was sinking into this bottomless sea. I started to panic. The metal walls were cracking and bending from the pressure. We sank lower and lower and I started to accept my fate. I looked out the porthole and saw 3 whales staring back at me. I knew things would be OK. I just had to relax.

The submarine reached the bottom of the bottomless sea. I got out and there was a train track covered in moss and green grass. I started following it and then slowly I could see there was a tunnel. Light came out of the tunnel. The closer I got, I could see there were people waiting for me. Waving and laughing and welcoming me. Like I have never been welcomed before.

Thinking about them now, I can feel the most pure love. It’s a feeling and a belief that everything I have ever wanted, the love and support I always wanted, wants me back. I felt it in my heart and soul.

This is what’s waiting for us all. They’re waiting for us to get through that darkness. And we’re not very far.

Since then, my perspective of “apocalypse” has changed. Earth is giving birth to a new planet. We’re going through the destruction and pain of the birthing process. 

I used to think about how we are to the Earth what cells are to our bodies. This is not a new concept. I’ve seen it described as the Law of Correspondence in ancient cultures and philosophies. “As above, so below.” The way I understand it is that everything is an example of itself. Everything is a mirror for itself.

So, the same way a human body gives birth to another human, the Earth is currently doing that. Just how birth can be painful and bloody, so is this. Of course when we lose 500 million skin cells every day, no one feels that loss. It’s just a natural part of living in a human body. If we lost that many people in 1 day, it’s a different story. We’re conscious. We have friends, families, dreams and goals. We are limited by our fears of death, so we need perspective.

Some things are beyond our understanding. I wish people didn’t have to suffer like they do. I wish plants, animals and the Earth could do this transition grounded in love and grace. I keep reminding myself my human mind wants to escape pain. I want to spare people the pain. But who am I to think that that’s what’s best for them or for the Earth?

Anyway, I think the end of the world is really a transition. Death is followed by rebirth. Pain is followed by joy. I have seen the light at the end of the tunnel and Earth and humanity will make it out. The bliss that is waiting for us, the beings of love who are there, it’s better than any words I can use. 

I will continue to hold this vision until I see it reflected back.