Dear Guide,

It’s hard to understand how to trust the Universe, God, and you when my life experiences have shown me that trusting others can be dangerous. You’re asking me to believe the opposite of what I’ve learned? That doesn’t make sense.

For example, in the past, whenever I opened my heart and let love flow through me, it seemed to attract “bad energy.” What do I mean by that? Mainly, people. I noticed that my openness and love toward others made people more predatory. Friends, family—even those I should have been able to trust—took advantage of my energy. I received unwanted attention, physical contact, and interactions that made me deeply uncomfortable.

And that’s just from this lifetime. I’m not even talking about the experiences of my ancestors or past lives, where my love, joy, and abundance seemed to draw pain and chaos toward me.

So how does that make sense?

The Flip: My World Turned Upside Down

In the summer of 2022, I experienced what I can only describe as a “flip.” Imagine sliding headfirst down a long slide. Then, suddenly, you flip upside down, and now you’re sliding feet first. That’s how it felt—like my soul or energy had turned inside out.

This was also when I started noticing strange shifts in the world. Subtle but undeniable. Continents looked different from how I remembered them. New Zealand wasn’t where I had learned it to be. At first, I considered the possibility of memory errors, but the changes felt more profound, almost magical. Maybe one day I’ll understand what really happened.

Back to the flip—when my world turned upside down in 2022, it reminded me of a scene from Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End. The characters needed to enter the spirit world, and to do so, they flipped their ship upside down. When they did, their entire reality inverted, and they emerged somewhere new. That’s exactly how it felt for me. I popped up in a world where the rules were reversed—a mirror of the one I had known.

The Old World vs. The New World

In the world I left behind, good attracted bad, and bad attracted good.

• Lying was rewarded.
• Stealing led to success.
• Harming others brought money, power, and status.

Meanwhile, the people who did good suffered for it.

• Speaking the truth led to ridicule and judgment.
• Living from the heart made you a target.
• Being kind and generous drained you, as others took and took until you had nothing left.

It was as if the brighter your light, the more darkness sought to smother it. I saw this pattern everywhere. It’s why so many pure-hearted people—people deeply connected to the Universe—struggle with addiction, escapism, or self-destruction. In that world, purity was a liability. If you had no “bad counterweight” to balance you, you wouldn’t survive.

But here?

Here, good attracts good.

I’m still learning how to navigate this shift, but I feel it. In this new world, integrity, truth, and love aren’t just weaknesses waiting to be exploited—they are strengths. Maybe the Universe has been waiting for me to see this all along.

Seeking Truth Beyond Duality

I asked my guides, Do we need evil to balance our good?

Their answer: Queen of Swords, Page of Pentacles, The Emperor.

Maybe balance isn’t about good versus evil at all. Maybe it’s about clarity—seeing beyond duality (Queen of Swords), being open to learning new ways of understanding (Page of Pentacles), and creating a foundation where good can thrive on its own (The Emperor).

Perhaps the world I left behind wasn’t about balance at all. Maybe it was simply a world built on a different set of rules, ones that no longer apply to me. And maybe I don’t need to fear good attracting bad anymore.

I’m still learning. I’m still exploring. But if there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s this: I will follow my heart, create my own foundation, and trust that I am meant to exist in this world as I am—without fear.

Because maybe good isn’t meant to be balanced by evil. Maybe it’s meant to stand strong on its own.